Saturday, February 4, 2012

This Piggy Went to the Doctor?






This little piggy went to the market. This little piggy stayed home. This little piggy went to the... doctor?

(picture taken a couple hours after removing the hair)


Recently I have felt like I need to get the {insert sarcasm here} Mother Of The Year Award. {cue sob music} While trying to find balance between family and blogging, I became sick with the flu, and we all know that when a mom gets sick the whole house goes down hill fast. With dishes and laundry piling up, I just laid in bed not wanting to do anything. Jaxon would watch cartoons a lot more than usual, and I felt the guilt settling in. Guilt that I wasn't being the best mom I could be. Next, my poor baby fell out of his crib and bit through his lip. Now fast forward two days later when I go to get my son ready for the day. When I took off his socks he was sleeping in, I find the tip of his toe bright purple. I was confused at first, but quickly found a bunch of my blonde hair and a string from his sock wrapped so tightly around his toe that it sliced it and was cutting off all circulation. As I drove him to the Doctor, tears weld up in my eyes because I began to think, "how could I of not noticed earlier? When was the last time I bathed him? How long has he had these socks on?"

When I got to the Doctor's, they took me right back so they could surgically remove what was left of the hair/string. The Doctor said if I had waited another 24 - 48 hrs, the tissue in his toe could have died and left things permanently damaged. Jaxon was of course screaming as I held him down, and in between breathes he would grab my arm and kiss it as if to say, "I am sorry. Please stop hurting me now." At that moment, I felt he was asking me why? Why was I hurting him? Why don't I take better care of him? Now of course I know this is dramatic and isn't true, but as a woman I automatically start to think I am the worst. After it was all said and done I called my mom and just cried. I now was crying for more reasons then just the dumb toe. I was crying because I felt guilty. I cried because lately I have been struggling to find the balance between being a mom and wife. I cried because I was mad that I was crying, and I cried because a girl sometimes just needs a good cry. You know what I mean?


I realize there will be many more times where I feel this way and I may never find that perfect balance, but all that matters is that I try. I am going to try to be a better mom and wife and put my family first no matter what. I am going to learn to say "no" so I can say "yes" to what really matters and that is my family.







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8 comments:

  1. The very fact that you cried over it all proves you are a good mom, you want to do the best for your son! You love him and that means more than anything else! You are amazing, keep it up!

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  2. Oh Poor Baby, and Mama! We have all been there, feeling stress, guilt and pinning ourselves "Mother of the Year" hang in there! Glad he will be just fine!

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  3. We all have bad days, and I am positive that you're an awesome mama! Just do the best you can--that's all anyone ever asks. Hope your whole little family is better soon!

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  4. Poor baby & poor you! Sometimes motherhood is really, really hard. Did you read my post about guilt free motherhood? Don't be too hard on your self bridge, you are an amazing mom and giving all you can to that sweet boy. He is lucky to have you!

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  5. Oh I am so sorry! I would have reacted the same way as you, and felt the same way too! I'm glad you figured it out when you did. Everything worked out! Thank goodness for moms to vent to! :)

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  6. Aw, don’t be too hard on yourself Bridget. Mothers do have moments of weaknesses, but that doesn't make you a bad mom. The more important thing is you were able to bring little Jaxon to the doctor. How is he today? I hope that he is all healed now. Children are prone to cuts and scrapes. No matter how vigilant you are, these boo-boos happen. The best thing you can do to protect your little one is to childproof your home. First is to check his clothing. Cut the loose ends on his shirts. Fabrics, no matter how
    soft they are, can cause cuts on his delicate skin. Then check your surroundings for sharp objects and place all the dangerous items beyond their reach. And always have your doctor's number with you in case of emergencies. Childproofing is a constant process - the older they get, the more places they explore. So you have to be on your toes all the time.

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    1. Thanks Chalice for some great advice :)

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