Wednesday, September 5, 2012

We Are Moving...

I don't even know where to begin to write this post...

(first off, I am writing this fast due to so much to do, so don't judge the grammatical errors)

It has been an emotional roller coaster this past month. I wont go into too much personal detail, but I have been finding getting or staying pregnant harder than I thought. I don't want to address this too much because I know this is a sensitive subject where MANY have tried for a LOT longer than me and still cant. I am so blessed and lucky to at least have one and I know that.  I know I will have more kids, and its just a matter of the Lords time, not mine. So by no means am I throwing a pity party. I am simply sharing the events of my life this past while.

Now onto the next event:

Lately, I had this overwhelming feeling I needed to simply my life. NO more parties, NO more blogging etc for a while and just focus on my family. Take that time figuring out why I am not getting pregnant and just keep that as my focus. I tend to be a "stresser, " I stress over things not important, and I am a person who HAS to be busy. I am always doing something, and I tend to overfill my time with things that eventually stress me out and really don't matter. Like, really Bridget do I have to do this craft, will my readers actually care? Probably not!

 I need to learn to not stress the small stuff and hopefully that could help in some way to get/stay pregnant. Who knows... just a thought and its worth a try. So I decided it was time to simplify and not be a working mom for a while. There is NOTHING more important to me than being a mom, and at that time I didn't need to work, I chose to. Well, that whole focus on family thing lasted only 2 days when my husband got a phone call about a job opportunity that would take my family to California for the rest of our lives....  My husband would be completely switching careers into something he currently wasn't doing nor ever thought he would. This move will also keep us in California for the rest of our lives. Every time my husband came up with a new business idea I kept saying I just wish I knew what we were going to do and just stay put. I got what I wanted, but now I am not sure if its what I want... typical Bridget!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH


Now I am going to get personal here by sharing MY beliefs. This past month has been a lot of praying. Praying for a child and now praying for what to do with my family. My husband also had a job interview for a job here in Utah another potential one in AZ and in So. Cal. These are all great blessings. People cant find jobs and here my husband has options. However, the one that is taking us to California came first and was in need of someone asap, so we were having to be quick with our decisions. This is something my family didn't take lightly, and with a LOT of prayer, fasting, crying, and more prayer. We both knew what we needed to do. This by far is the biggest decision I have ever made in my life, and I WAS terrified we would make the wrong one. Thankfully, my husband had an amazing spiritual experience where he knew California is where we are suppose to go and from then on out we just have to put our trust in the Lord and know that this is where he wants us, and we need to move forward. This doesn't mean I haven't CRIED and cried HARD to know I am leaving the place I grew up and love so much. I am a Utah girl through and through. They are going to have to pry my fingers of the "welcome to Utah" sign to get me out of this state. My family is super tight and I know what I will be missing by moving.  I feel like I am closing a big chapter of my life that I am not done reading.

I am heart broken to leave all my friendships I have made over the years, my amazing neighbors, and my connections I have worked so hard to get for this blog. However, when times get hard, I can fall back on the feelings and answer my husband received that he KNOW this is where we are suppose to go.




The job we are taking will be a big pay cut at first, but in the long run will be a great blessing for our family. It is a lot of sacrifice up front with hopeful potential down the road. It is one of those situations of take 1 step back for 2 steps forward. This was about 4 weeks ago that we got wind of this opportunity and after going over our finances etc and knowing the cost of living in California, I knew I HAD to go back to work OR make something work. This is when and why I launched Bridgets Boutique. I am excited for this boutique and the response thus far has been more than I could ask for. I have great plans for the future for it, but until I get settled in I am going to keep it simple so I can, like I said before, focus on my family.





SO...  I went from taking a break to being busier than ever... or so I thought, but life just got even crazier.

Yesterday Chase flew out to California for the final interview and right then and there they said "Congrats, you are now a member of Merrill Lynch and you start Sept 19th....... "

SAY WHAT? THE 19TH...

Let the packing up my whole house, mail out all my packages from Very Jane, sell my car, get all the Dr visits in before we lose insurance, tie up loose ends, sell our town home, and leave the 16th to drive to Cali where we will live with my in laws until we can find a place. Okay so NOW I am busy. Hopefully we will be able to find a place soon and I can get settled in and get back to normal.. or at least throw my son a decent bday party for his birthday the end of this month :).


CALIFORNIA HERE WE COME! I have cried enough over the decision and I am going to try my best to enjoy my last 2 weeks in Utah as much as I can and just try to have a positive attitude and take this as an adventure. I am done thinking of all the reasons why I don't want to go: traffic, cost of living, no cousins for Jaxon, no Blaser family, the atmosphere is not what I am use to in Utah where there is a church on every corner lol. I need to switch my attitude and think of all the positive because there is a lot. I have nothing against California, I just never thought of raising my kids and settling there for life. It is just a hard idea to wrap my head around in just 2 weeks.  I have told myself my whole life I am raising my kids here in Utah. It is just all the unknown. All I know is Utah and more of a sheltered lifestyle, so it will be an experience for sure, but an experience I will grow to love and be so grateful for the experience. 

LET THE ADVENTURE BEGIN... literally right now... I got to stop blogging and start a packing ;)


BUT WAIT, one more thing...

DON'T think I am about to leave with out throwing a farewell party. If you would like to come say good bye and watch me cry lol, then you can email me for directions to my"Bitter Sweet goodbye" Party at my parents house.

Invitation done by Mimi's Dollhouse! (she is flipping amazing)

24 comments:

  1. Wow, Bridget!!! That is HUGE & totally emotional! I wish you & your cute family all the best! Are you going to be in San Diego? That's where we are & we love it. If so, let's meet @ the zoo sometime! You can get in free w/ me & your little cutie is free :))
    xoxo,
    Laurie :))

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  2. Wow, Bridget!!! That is HUGE & totally emotional! I wish you & your cute family all the best! Are you going to be in San Diego? That's where we are & we love it. If so, let's meet @ the zoo sometime! You can get in free w/ me & your little cutie is free :))
    xoxo,
    Laurie :))

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  3. this is so exciting and i understand emotional. good luck and i know you will LOVE socal! :)
    XOXO
    E

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  4. I cant believe you are moving! we just met!!! good luck in all of your adventures!

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  5. Oh my gosh what a post! So much is going on! Grateful for answers to our prayers though, you know this is where you should be and everything will work out! I am definitely emailing you for the address, I have to meet you before you move!

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  6. Wow, that is a lot of things to be on your plate! But you've always been a go-getter, so I know that this move will be everything it needs to be for you and more. I love it when people do posts like this because it's when we are the most ourselves--which we all can relate to. Good luck with the move; I know your family will do great!

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  7. Any one of those things is tough...but all at once! Good luck in your move, and I feel your pain. We left Utah a little over 3 years ago to come up here, and I'll be honest, it was tough. But in a lot of ways it's been the best thing for our family, and certainly the best for my husband's career. At least you're going someplace sunny!

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  8. oh my! lots of crazy exciting stressful things. but i think you're right - just try to enjoy this crazy time and not let things stress you out too much. lots to get done, and it'll either get done or it won't. but it won't be the end of the world if it doesn't :) i just might come by to see you and your little jaxon before you go. i think i remember the way to your parents ;) good luck dear! xo.

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  9. I may have cried a bit reading this. You are so strong and I know you will have so much fun in Cali...just know we will miss you tons here in Utah.

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  10. Bridget- would it help you if your blog friends helped you get your VERY JANE stuff mailed out at the party? That's a ton to have on your plate and I'm sure we'd all like to help you. I can fill and order and pack stuff and write addresses with the best of them. We could all help you get that little bit of good stress off your plate before you go. Here's hoping all your dreams come true in short order!

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  11. Oh, I can't believe it! We never got to play. I'm excited for you and your adventure. Good luck!!

    We will always have the blog world to keep us connected. Make sure to keep in touch.

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  12. Good luck with everything Bridget!! There IS a plan for you & your little family, it will ALL work out! You will love California after all the settling down & adjusting:) Crazy!! xoxo

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  13. Good luck with everything and yes, trust in the Lord this is all meant to be. I myself am struggling with pregnancy for baby #2. I lost a second baby this summer and after some tests I am low on progesterone. My husband and I both agree that if we only have our daughter we already have been blessed to the moon and back. But, its still hard when all of your friends are expecting their second and thirds.. Thank you for sharing your personal story. Its nice to know a person is not alone.
    We also left Chandler AZ (Phoenix) after living there for 10 years a month ago and moved to Austin, Texas. Best decision we could have made. Originally being from the midwest and knowing what those values are and not having good schools for our daughter in AZ we needed a change. Luckily, my husband was transferred and for us it came at a great time.
    Can't wait to hear all about the move and I am sure you will love CA!
    PS: At least you will have a trader joes. That is one thing I do miss.

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  14. Bridget, I have loved getting to know you the past several months. I am really going to miss your blog posts and seeing you at The Wood Connection. And I'm really going to miss seeing you light up when you get a creative idea and of course we're going to miss seeing Jax playing with the paint at the store. I wish we wouldv'e been better friends in college and then continued it into the blogging world. :) Good luck on your new adventure! And please keep blogging on your life as you move to Cali. Best wishes!!!
    Rachel

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  15. Good luck Bridget! Those leaps of faith truly always pay off. I am jealous you will get to have warm weather most of the time too. :)

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    1. I just came across your blog...you have amazing talent. I too have had infertility issues so I understand your pain. So much, that I recruited a fertility doctor to St. George to help fill our community needs. I know you just moved to California but if you are interested in getting to the root of your infertility issues I would suggest checking our doctor out. We have been to several infertility clinics and I have found Dr. Foulk to be the best. Plus, his prices are incredible when compared to others in his field. I am not sure how long you have been waiting to get pregnant but my advise is to get checked sooner rather than later. We waited 7 years and by then we had aged, more issues to deal with etc. If you are interested check out Dr. Russell Foulk at Utah Fertility Clinic in Pleasant Grove, Utah. Depending on where you live in California, his Reno office may be closer to you. Good Luck! Wish you all the best on your journey!

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  16. Moving is tough, so is change! I sympathize there! Also, baby fever has hit me a little too, and we started trying last month, nothing. But it took me a year with my son, and I had a miscarriage the first one, which was potentially cancerous, so for two years I was monitored and not allowed to concieve. Talk about hard. Then when I finally did get pregnant with my son, I was on edge thinking I would lose him all the time. I now know that yes, it is God's timing, and if he wants me to have more, I will. It takes the pressure off. Pressure and stress affect fertility, so give it up to Him. And eat yogurt. I swear that helped me concieve. After a year of trying, I tried it all! And then I ate yogurt three times a day and bam...pregnant...and of course praying...that is the best. Good luck to you and thanks for sharing your heart!

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  17. Good luck in everything Bridget. Doing what's best for your family is most important. You will be greatly missed in Utah. It's been great getting to know you.

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  18. This is Chase's aunt Shawna and can I say, "Welcome to Cali!!!!" I, too, am a Utah girl through and through who was afraid of the unknown of crazy California! However, I can tell you that it is amazing here. So many good people, great opportunities for kids. You will grow to LOVE it. My little ones can be Jax's CA "cousins." :) We're here for ya!!!

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  19. I can relate! I'm a Utah girl and about 2 years ago my husband and I and our son moved to southern California. I was the manager at the wood connection and Rachel replaced me. I hated to leave! My family is in Utah and my in laws are here in so cal and my boy will be 2 on the 23rd of this month! It's an adjustment but there are a lot of great things about California. Maybe now we can be friends in real life! :) Good luck with everything.

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  20. Dear Bridget, Just stopping by after a couple of busy summer months. Thanks for sharing these personal things with us so that we can get to know you & appreciate you. So sorry for the fertility issues. I pray that you will be blessed with the children you desire! And I know that you are going to enjoy California. I predict that it will be a bit of an adjustment, then a wonderful adventure. I'll be thinking of you!

    Warmly, Michelle

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  21. Good luck with the move! You will love California! If you are living in Ventura County. We would love to have you in the Thousand Oaks 1st ward!

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  22. I am from California and am now living in Utah! We swapped places! I know how it feels! But I do hope sunny California is treating you well and everyone is giving you a nice California welcome!! I hope your loving it!!

    kashiariley.blogspot.com

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